The St0ry BeinGs

Burning of pages

2009-11-15T05:06:00.000-08:00

sup:O today at work was okay started to be boring but turned out to be a good day go a good comment from a pilot of the SIA which was a big thing la had drinks with them and when to the kitchen and continued work so yeah thats much which have happened lah..i am so B.O.R.E.D at work usin my office comp to blog so yeah haha:) its closin time so i better start clossin up the kitchen and and i just got a good news from my supervisor he said after 3months i would be gettin promoted which is a good news for me i think :x anyhow i am off goodday people:)

La ViDa LoCo Day@work

2009-11-08T04:12:00.000-08:00

wasssup!!! its been really reallyyyyy along time since i blogged cos the first reason is my house comp wen boom! secondly work so yeah now i am usin my restaurant computer to blog so i have to tis short and sweet..life been great so far thought i would lose interest in cookin but since i started workin i am slowly gaining back my confidence and passion..hmmm today is just a dreadful day hven been hvin enough sleep lately and restraunt is empty no coustomer today so boring but i got to play pool for like half the day and drink some booze and and the best part is i get paid for doing all this lol so yeah another girl is out of my life thought you were different but you turned out to be the same aiyah!!! so yeah still hanging there like wat my sister-in-law(sindhu) said to me that it takes time so yeah time is all i have i think haha okay i have to go now order is comin in and my fren is sittin on my lap and its disgusting so ciao:) have a happy La Vida LoCo sunday everyone lol :)

knife, kichen towels and apron

2009-08-15T01:20:00.000-07:00

haha wassupp todays is a super nice day for a chilled beer and sipping slowly and eating alone at my own comfort with a nice cook book on my side sitting at the balcony and enjoyin ur day=) haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa so yeah today woke up ealry just to bring lttle ben to my aunts house we left yishun at freakin 8am and i was like half dead in the train and its like when i reach her home the smell of meat stewin with pasta sauce and eggplant was like adernaline rush sorry i didnt spell it right but i think you guys know what so yeah=0 at of course my aunts food always taste good so yeah and i like goin there cause she is like the one who asks me about culinary and stuff and she makes me feel good like i am putting what i learnt to use and yeah it makes me feel good=) lots of thinks running through my mind dont how to let go some of it thoughts of furthering my studies to learnt bakin but has i am a singaporean i have to serve the stupid NS so yeah...oh just read mama jahats blog super fierce...

relationship: someone told me that i didnt know realtionship and i will never know but love comes from the person or place where you least expect from so yeah love dosent consent whether your with the person for 1 year or 1month or 2 years it just every moment you spend must be something you will remeber and cherish for awhile i may says like after one year i get bored of the girl i am dating but i am aint like that i am very opposite trust me=) anyhow like i said love is something you must not regret or hate haha and ok now i am goin back to bed my room so cold and shiok ahahaha.

tonights gonna be one good night....

2009-08-13T04:01:00.000-07:00

so ummm yeah lifes been great so far searching for jobs cause mr clarence lost his old one oh poop! so yeah life is good so far..happy i happen to read your blog today stop bloggin about me i was so nice about talkin to you but hack okay you dont have to be there for me i have someone else who will be there for me always and never let go of me and YES i am way happier and like you said that why i am the guy which i am now and i deserve it??? what the fuck!! life is great very good i wont deny that please erase me out of your life ok!!!

Amanda hey you been studyin so much eh haha dont become to smart la but abit enough haha..we should meet upp and you better be readin this haha=) see you soon

MY LIFE IS FUCKIN GREAT WITH OUT YOU MOVE ON....

Life is just like this=)

2009-08-04T06:32:00.000-07:00

The grey sky looming above
rain drops still dripping down
from the pregnant clouds above
we set out on our journey once again;

around and around we go
in slow circles, moving
to the beat of the thunder
and rain that surrounds us

as the droplets hit the ground,
shattered realizations lay scattered
reminding me nothing is same
as it seems to be;

as another memory turns to dust
i cut the lifeline that attaches me to the past
and i shove it back into the depths
where nothing will ever bring it back alive;

the rain does nothing to stop our journey,
never forgetting, who we are
we walk these streets of madness,
knowing that,without each-other…..
we are simply incomplete.

Amanda dont be sad okay life isnt always fair sometimes we get things which really puts that huge smile on our face but it dosent last for long but the hurting does last long..but theres always a reason to why it happens we cant be always happy and we cant be always sad there should be a balance whatever happens in life we must get back on our feet and i will be beside you ok=) dont care about what happen move on with life like its just another day..smile aways okay

AMANDA!!!!! you one special girl!!

2009-08-03T04:31:00.000-07:00

so yeah never blogged about her all have been inside me she makes me happy this girl amanda:) shes my friend!! your one girl who is so different and you make me soo happy and good about myself i am a guy who keeps eveything inside all the hurt and pain and i like to see the people aroud me happy thats my deepest sceret =) so yeah life have been paint in pure gold since i got your number and its has been soo good in life i know even though i fall i know you cant catch me but you will be there for me hehe=) and you i know mr eyecandy is all good-lookin and your planning everything with him i really dont want to see that happy face of yours become sad okay just saying but i will always be here for you JOTHI!!!! haha and you made me know that your 1zillion X better then that her!!! hehe i never ever regretted knowing you and i hope you dont to=) haha nothin else la my blog now tooo sweet already=)

aTtachMenT + Love? = wooooooo

2009-07-08T19:00:00.000-07:00

hey guys today i am off was havin attachment for the past 3 days lifes been great so far attachment is sweet made frens with the service staffs and chefs i plated like more then 100 plates =) soooo cool!!! first few times were like crap i got used to the design and now i am doing fine theres much more things i am learning so yeah everythings been fun...so yeah theres this mystry girl in my life we always met after my works is over like around 12++ at city hall she's a sunrise student she used to work at the place i am workin at....so yeah lets jus see what happens but ummmm she's wow!!

Letters From The Sky

2009-06-28T07:40:00.005-07:00

one of these days the sky's gonna break
And everything will escape, and I'll know
one of these days the mountains are gonna fall
into the sea, and they'll know

That you and i were made for this
i was made to taste you kiss
we were made to never fall away
never fall away

one of these days letters are gonna fall
from the sky telling us all to go free
but until that day i will find away to let everybody know
that your coming back for me,you're coming back for me

cause even though you left me here
i have nothing to fear
these are walls that hold me here
hold me here,hold me here

one day i will hold you like the suns holds the moon
and we will hear the planes overhead
and we wont have to be scared
we wont have to be, we wont have to be scared

I aM sO In LovE wIt EvEryThiNg ABt Her......

2009-06-14T00:08:00.000-07:00

I remembered black skies / the lightning all around me
I remembered each flash / as time began to blur
Like a startling sign / that fate had finally found me
And your voice was all I heard
That I get what I deserve

So give me reason / to prove me wrong / to wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross the distance in your eyes
Give me reason / to fill this hole / connect the space between
Let it be enough to reach the truth that lies Across this new divide

There was nothing in sight / but memories left abandoned
There was nowhere to hide / the ashes fell like snow
And the ground caved in / between where we were standing
And your voice was all I heard That I get what I deserve

So give me reason / to prove me wrong / to wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross the distance in your eyes
Across this new divide

In every loss / in every lie
In every truth that you'd deny
And each regret / and each goodbye
was a mistake to great to hide
And your voice was all I heard
That I get what I deserve

So give me reason / to prove me wrong / to wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross the distance in your eyes
Give me reason / to fill this hole / connect the space between
Let it be enough to reach the truth that lies
Across this new divide

You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be

2009-06-09T18:03:00.000-07:00

hi everyone cant sleep so decided to blog life been great so far i am on my holidays now cant wait for my attachment i cant wait to earn and work hard cos its my dream and i wuld wanna hold that dream up and reach my goals oh oh and yea of cos cant wait for cash in my pocket.so yea suppose to go to chalet ytd but didnt cos my babe needed me i told her i will always be there wen she needs me so yea i jus call and told them that she needed me and that she was down so yea i met sindhu too she didnt wan to go sch so we headed to bp i noe she was wit mark so i sat at mac and then i saw him and her walk by me i jus felt enrage wen i saw him dun noe why i think i *gaNster* hehe so yea i bought her flowers too cos i wanted to cheer her up i hope they:) i reali do wan to see her in my future has my wife and lover i dun care abt all those things...you are always and will be special to me in my eyes ok....so yea ok bye bye:)

part of the list......

2009-06-02T09:41:00.000-07:00

hiieeee guys life has been great and will be i think...woke up today late headed to sch late and started my paper late. Was on the train today saw maryln she recongised me she was wit tis guy and she introduced him to me. i guess they were a couple i saw somethin in her eyes which i used to see wen she was wit james then bright spark i felt like sayin smethin but if she was that happy i am ok wit it..all of a sudden this one drop of tear ran dwn my eyes i had tis urge to tell her how much i miss seein them being close callin me their young brother this pain hidden somewhere in me was hurting i was jus like a stone all the way to sch i couldnt write my paper flashbacks of the times were running bak inside my head...has i am wrttin this blog tears are jus flowin i wish i could take bak the time i noe he wuld be scoldin me up frm heaven i shuld be strng not weak i am sorri..my kiddo was the other good thing which happened in my life she was the one holdin me i wuld gone mad and hostile witout my brother!! wit you i feel at peace and learnin frm what happen today i honestly feel like a idiot.i dun noe why!!! whever marlyn maybe i wish her all the best!!

sEa Is a Beautiful Creation......

2009-05-17T03:27:00.000-07:00

You leaned over and you kissed me
I felt my knees go weak
You leaned over and you kissed me
I couldn't even speak
You leaned over and you kissed me
With a passion flowing free
You leaned over and you kissed me
Sparks flew that we could see
You leaned over and you kissed me
A touch so soft and tender
You leaned over and you kissed me
A kiss I would remember
You leaned over and you kissed me
I'm sure I kissed you back
You leaned over and you kissed me
With the fire no kiss should lack
You leaned over and you kissed me
You left me wanting more
You leaned over and you kissed me
My soul you did explore
You leaned over and you kissed me
My heart no longer full of pain
You leaned over and you kissed me
Darling, kiss me once again

long time after i am bloggin so yea.. yesterday was the fishin trip at sembawang we camped overnight it was fun but had to see alot of fatima rockers haha so yea we like bored at first then later wen the food came we were pumped wit energy out of no where...so yea next fishin trip hmmm maybe ecp or pasir ris see how so yea might be goin later to sembawang again wit my member they wanna overnight, i can go but i am tired see how lah they bringing drinks and stuff and food to bbq so yea i wanna watch harpers island too so yea haha might go, might not we shall see my mood. ok i will write in again sme other time ok bubbye

YoU aNd Me GirL NobOdy Else....

2009-04-22T22:11:00.000-07:00

hey peeps....its been great i guesss my life's turning out great i was actuali losing interst in culinary during the holidays then my sir called me he told me he wanted me to join Ilido a italian restaurant at sentosa golf club...yea suddenly that hope of my dream struck me i shuld work harder and get myself to where i wanna be..yea:) so i hve lots to change i wanna lose weight hve that picture perfect body i noe i speak but i reali wanna do it. so yea i could notice you wanna be wit me the way you look into my eyes hold my hand feeling you being close then you move..i aint blind i can noe. like i said i wuld give everything jus for you dun i?? i honestly no you do wana be together ur jus hloding back everthing...i read ur blog and its confirmed so yea. i noe love cant be forced but has time past i jus hope times by my side i wana be the reason for that smile on ur face..:)

GueSs wHosE bAcK......

2009-04-20T17:43:00.000-07:00

hellllooooo. has not been much things in my life to blog about. i couldnt sleep so i woke up and was thinki if my blog was like a book rite now it hve like spider webs and stuff its abt a year since i hvent blog. been goin out here and there meeting ppls aiyah can go on..ok thats enough for now i guess the other update might another 2-3yrs???? hahaha chow-chin-chow^-^

BeauTifUl DAwn.....

2008-12-08T04:53:00.000-08:00

hey guys tis few days werent that great....i feel like my old lifes coming bak hahaha:) so yea redecorated the christmas tree in my hse which looked like a clown circus at first now it looks abit better. so yea went out wif priya the other day and wen to eat at mac we sat at a table and she sunddenly asked me wuld i be part of her life has her boyfren and i was like ummm you wan fries! she was i am not playing she said that me and her were single and it meant for us to be together but i was like sry priya honestly speaking i did and still have a bit of feelings for you but i still think of natasha and i wished to be wif her and i am sorri i jus dun wan to hurt you she asked wat she does not hve then nastasha has...i told her it jus cant be explained...it reali seemed bad for me to do that to her i told my frens abt it and they said i am one dumb fucker who jus cant be changed and i am always doin and make stupid descions!!!they said i had no pride for myself and i continue to love tasha even though shes wif mark and all that stuff!!!haha maybe? but i dun noe i always followed wat james told me listen to ur heart and fuck evertything else...i was wondering why do other girls wan to be wif me wen the one i reali love dosent!!! haha stupid eh i m sounding so deseperate me and guna same chapter now!!!!but priya said that she try to change me and i jus told her hmmm up to you!!!! man i miss all those times of finding trouble and ending up wasted:) heh honsetly speakin i dun noe wat am i doin....hmmm readin her pm jus now made me tink maybe mark reali does keep her happy good for her hope they last long:) i think the onli way to forget my life is to get into some wicked trouble ima do that!!!peace

tHiS Is ThE dAy i PrAy FoR.....

2008-12-02T05:23:00.000-08:00

hey guys long time no talk...lazy to type:) so yea today was the last paper for my end of the year exams...and and now its my freaking HOLIDAY wakaka.so yea after sch wen dwn to yishun lepak a bit! then later wen dwn to eat wif ccl:) then later wen bak to lepaking:) so yea its jus days like tis make me :):):):):) so yup get it! AND i showed her the one gift i had bought for her wen i showed her i saw somethin different in her eyes dun noe wat....so yup we headed dwn later to safra to play pool but bad news was that the tables were occupied damn those chinna:) so yea i saw my old sec sch peeps and they were like clarrrreeeenccceee and i was like HI:) so yea i was like hanging wit them talkin to them, and i felt kinda bad for not talkin to the girls(sorrrryyyyyy)
and yea had fun today hope everyone did:) maybe i will give her our 1mth give for christmas haha(cheapskate) :) peace

ThEreS A PoT Of GoLD

2008-11-09T03:39:00.000-08:00

hey long time nvr update kinda lazy lah:) so yea life goin great i guess...deepavali was great wen to my freinds and familys house...and yea today i did my caramel it turned out like crap:( i cant do pastries i dun noe maybe i onli good for cooking:) so yea me and tasha hve like talk things...i jus dun understand why you wuld miss me so much? i jus didnt talk to you for onli 3days and you said it was long...but i felt veri empty in those three days my life was missing smething i dun noe why but yea i jus felt lonely and like there wasnt happiness in me cos you werent in my life girl i found out that wen i was talkin to guna...i noe you cant understand but yea in those three days my life was jus weird:( and yea yesterday i went to take the mould frm tasha we sat talked and relax for awhile...it was late and i haqd to get bak hme! so yea the bus came she huged me so i had these feeling in my heart it was like go ahead and kiss her so i gave her a kiss and then i felt that i shuldnt hve done that cos i am nothing,i am not even her bf!!! so yea today morning i woke up wen to meet priya for breakfast we were eating at long john silver...she oso got her own realitonship problems she was like telling me then late i came hme i felt like writtng this words out so here it is:

When you have know light to guide youand no one to walk beside youI will come to you when the night is dark and stormy you won't have to search for me when you don't know how or why but you have lost you way have now fear when your dreams are falling I will hear your spirit calling and I swear I will be there see even if we can not be together now and forever and I swear that I will be there we all need somebody we can turn to someone who will always understand so even if your soul is dieing and you need the strength to keep tryingI’ll reach out and take your hand for I will come to you cos i love you till the end....... hope its nice:)

(CrASy_RaScAl)

ThE BeSt BiRthDay Of ME LifE,,,,,,

2008-10-22T08:51:00.000-07:00

heyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy guys today is my birthday:) woke up quite ealry so can get b'dae wishes got loads of em and i am supper happy....i thought tis b'dae wasnt gonna be like hw james will plan for me every year but in the end it turn out superb:) wen to sch first thing i saw my baby and ccl they wished me happy b'dae and my oh sooo sweet baby girl gave me a hug:) that reali made my day.....so i went to class super boring and i was sleepy...during class i was like thinking whether heaven had phone connection cos i jus wanted to hear james say happy birthday to me but i noe i must be stupid:( so yea later once my class ended i went to meet the girls we took the bus back to my baby hse and the actuali bought a small cake for me and my baby bought me a special heart shape cake reali sweet of her:) we sang song and cut my cake:) then we lepak for awhile at her hse and and i forgot in the morning i went to see aunty AND i kept new flowers for james:) so yea coming bak angel left first frm tasha hse and then i left...i had to meet my makkals at james hse...so i went there i actuali knew they were gonna surprise me but i had to act so yea i went in to the hse and they shouted happy birthday i was like oh my freakin shit(but i alrdi knew so act a bit) then we ate rice aunty cook chicken mmmmm:-) so yea my whole day has been like not hw i planned cos because of my baby girl my day is getting better i love you baby:) thx so much

I LOVE MY BABY GIRL:) THX FOR EVERYTHING:)

bAby yOu weRe BeAuTifUL hAs tHE mOoN tOday.....

2008-10-18T09:58:00.000-07:00

hey guys today was like totally awsome!!!!! i went to sch to help out wit world skills at around 7.15 am till 4pm in the afternoon! it was super fun i drank wine and we most of the time fooled around...so yea in the morning my dad drove me to sch like my whole first time!!! then later after the whole world skill he came to pick me up again...i didnt bring my handphone to sch so wen i stepped into the hse my mum and sis were like clarence!!!!!!! tasha was calling you alot of time and msged you too...my mum was like first things first go dial up that girl and i was like ohhkay but yea so i decided to meet up wif the girls at yishun and frm here we wen to orchard walk around far east and then we decided to go to marina bay to sit near the merlion and lepak and talk for awhile its super fun lah...so yea the day came shot cos the girls had to be hme before 12pm!!! we waited wif ccl for her bus and i sent tasha bak on the way in the bus i was like enjoyin my day wit tasha she's super fun:) thx for a great day normally you wuld say it but today i am sayin it :) and and she said I LOVE YOU and my world stop!!! wen i saw that msg it was like there was a firework party goin on in my heart i was super happy:) but yea i noe it means alot for her to say it and i will treasure it for the rest of our realtionship darling love you dear:)

(love is like a mountain,hard to climb but once you reach the top it is beautiful)

(CraSy_r@sCal)

thIs cRush aInt gOin awAy....

2008-10-11T23:36:00.001-07:00

hey guys yesterday wen out wit tasha..i went to pick her up frm her hse i bought a bouqet of rose for her hope she likes it:) then later we wen to causeway cause i wanted to buy some stuff cos clarence get pay:) so yea 2day we were supposed to meet cos tasha isnt feeling well and i am hving my high fever again:( so yea and and yesterday i got to noe tasha a bit better and she noe most of my stuff so yea! next week i dun got school so yea i am gonna be like yea!!!!! ohhhh crap okay i gtg cya ppl:)

(taSha tiS cRusH onYou aInt gOin aWay)

babY wIt yOu iN my Life EverYthings GonNa be fINd

2008-10-07T05:42:00.000-07:00

hey guys long time no update my blog! so yea hve not been feeling well lately hving high fevers and stuff so yea! hve been rotting at hme for tis past few days unless my frens call or i go meet them! SO UMMMM i hve tis new job at applied movers i was supposed to start today but i had fever andi was shevring like siao! whoa piang like in the freezer sia:( so yea my had problems wit his girl i an him found out that his girl is cheating on him and stuff so yea! and and baby today you called to check up on me and that no one has done for me except james and i reali wanted to thank you for that:) it reali makes my day and i feel happy i noe you hve been working tis few days but yea jus dun over work urself i dun wan you too become some pshyco monkey(actuali she is now one dun tell her) shhhhh :) anyhow i jus wanted to say tasha hving you in my life is the greatest gift god has given him and i am gonna treasure that gift for the rest of my life love you tasha:)

(cRAsy_lOveR)

tHe BoOk OF MEmOrieS

2008-09-24T07:29:00.000-07:00

hey guys today didnt reali woke up cos i nvr slept cos i was worried abt tasha she was supposed to call me yesterday and tell me hw she was feeling! she nvr called so i waited and waited then i called her at around 12noon and she was still sleeping so later i called her again around 3++ and she jus woke up so i told her that i was coming to meet her cos i wanted to get my ear phones and i wanted to see hw she was doin also....so i met her around 6 and we sat under her blk and talked and she wanted to go hme so she sent me to the bus stop and she left for hme..i noe its a hard time for her rite now and i noe hw she feel but not in the same situation but i jus noes hw she feels! so yea then later i went to james hse his mum called she gave tis book while cleaning his closet and it was so called his diary! so i opend it up and read it! it had a lot of things photos and memories while i was reading it my heart became heavier each seconf cos i found out hw much he reali cared for me and my heart was hurting like it was being beaten up inside! he even wrote abt the first time i showed him tasha photo he was like "clarence promise me tis dun ever let or leave tis girl out of your life" and i was like okay! tasha like i was saying over the phone no matter wat those guys or your ex bfs said you are still a SPECAIL GIRL okay you are one-in-a million:) okay be strong and i will always be there for you in heart in mind and in soul okay hun! i promise i will:) jus hang in there i noe you a strong angel:)

(gOds maKEs us speacial especailly you tasha cos your one-in-a million be strong)

~cRAsY_raSc@l~

My LiFe...

2008-09-23T19:24:00.001-07:00

hey guys jus came bak frm chalet and its my second day after chalet....kinda boring at home cos i awlays woke up during the chalet to see my angels face jus infront of me here i wake up seeing my lazy dog face infront of me:( so yea i am in a lot of deep shit i dun reali wanna talk abt it!to my angel hey girl i noe its hard for you at tis time after wat he said yesterday you must feel like crap! i noe that feeling and and pain in your heart rite now..you always thought of him has ur world but he jus aint treating you well i dun wanna see you like tis tasha okay like i said you are a sunshine and you must always hve tis smile on ur face hun...okay i had a great time wit you and the girls at the chalet tasha...okay hun i will always be there for you for the rest of my life! okay anyways be stong and be fearless okay :) peace out peeps

(DEAth LeAVes a HeaRtacHe wHich No oNe cAn HeaL..buT tasha yoU leaVe a meMorY nO One cAn STEal)

~cRazY_RaSc@l~

i Am tHe BlaMe fOr eVerYthIng.....

2008-09-20T07:21:00.001-07:00

hey guys today i didnt reali wake up cos i want sleeping so yea! everything thats was happening around me was my fault even james death is my fault oso eh...so yea i hve been lately not been happy cos watever i did for james gf she always blame that everything happen because of me! i dun reali noe wat to do? i wanna feel the way that i had wen priya was there she like my sister she knew wat was happening in my life she wuld not miss caling me a day:) later i am gonna meet her cos she found out wat happen...and to my tasha i noe its hard for you now and you hve been there for me these days now i am gonna be there for you! your a strong girl my hun you will get through tis wit me i will be by ur side...you shuldnt even think of cos he aint worth ur time...okay i will there for everytime like my nick said "the onli thing that matters to me now is my angel and that is you" jus now juliana came hme wit me she said she missed me and gave me hug...and she was like telling me to eat and like askin me to take care of myself haha...i kinda miss james cos he was always there for me wen i needed him! I WAN HIM BAK and i am sori james if i did anything to cause your death my bro.. good day everyone

( JaMes MaKE ME JoIn yOu sOoN)

ReAdy SeT gO iS tiME tO rUN....

2008-09-18T08:52:00.000-07:00

hey guys today i woke up feeling veri tired...i am actulai hvin tis same dream that i was attending my own funeral haha damn sick eh:) so yea woke up tired wen to class 1hr30mins late and i onli attended like 30 mins of class :) then my whole class was at the canteen talking to our sir! then i was like hungry so i bought food and ate in the canteen..so then i met up wit the girls cos they were coming to yishun to buy shampoo and stuff and then yadayada.....and yea i jus found out mark broke up wit tasha and i reali feel good for her cos she is now free frm him and the chalet is oso coming up so she can forget abt him....okay tasha i not jus telling tis cos i am and idiot but yea tis break-up is reali great for you cos hw dosent desevre a girl like you! like me and angel said he uses you for sex and we could see that he dosent reali love you! you thought that he was ur world but guess wat he isnt....he hurts you dosent respect you has his girlfriend! i noe its hard for you rite now c'mon girl you can get through tis everyons gonna be happy for you! okay hun your life gonna be great wen you hve us:) be strong my litte princess:) and one more thing mark has to feel sad cos he lost a SPEACIAL GIRL LIKE YOU

(DuN LOVe a GirL cOS sHE's BeauTifUl LoVE HeR cOS YoU mAKE hEr BeaUtIful)

~cRaSy_rAscAL~

ItS LiKe ShALaLa

2008-09-17T08:19:00.000-07:00

hey guys today i actuali woke up feeling kinda stress and tired..woke up early cos i was hving a excursion at sentosa more of a like class day out! so yea i met up wif the guys at habourfront then frm there we went to get our drinks,food and etc...so we went to the beach to find the volley ball court and we chose a place near it! it was so damn fucking hot today lah:( so yea i stayed there for around 1-4 hrs then later i had to leave cos i was gona meet the girls to do our get the food for our chalet...so yea i was still kinda moody wen i to meet the girls so later seeing all of them happy i didnt wan my fucking mood to like gloom their day oso so i started to disturb and make jokes to see all of them laugh:) then later we wen bak to that GIRL house to make mac n chesse and me ,ccl and that GIRL ate then later we sent ccl back to taman...then later i hanged out wif jus my BFF we had loads of fun i was actuali relaing wen i was wif her i dint hve to think abt wat to do abt tis and tat was so relaxing thx soo much:) so yea i lepak wif her and i was talking abt her and mark i didnt reali wan to see her sad anymore! so yea later we jus sat at the bus stop and talk and talk so fun:) anyways peace out eberyone i am happy BOY today:)

~CrAzY~rAsCAl~

EsPeciaLLy FoR yOu TaSHa

2008-09-16T07:57:00.001-07:00

hey my dumb dumb:) i noe you hve things running through ur head! you are a special girl to me and i noe i hve not been the same lately and i dun reali check up on you! i am sori for that but to tell you the truth i will always be here for you no matter wat okay! and there is no use crying for that guy (am i correct) but you shuldnt:0 your a strong girl and you will always be and god always make special girls like you and your one of gods best creation okay my dumb dumb okay i will always be rite hear a phone call away okay be happy like i said my sunshine should be sad not good okay...dumb dumb dumb dumb dumb wait for the chalet we will enjoy it i make sure wat ever problems i hve i leave it at hme before and be my old self at the chalet especially for you my dearest! okay rember kapala i am always here:)

~CraSzy~rAscAl~

always here for you

HaLf PaSt-DeAd.....

2008-09-16T05:37:00.000-07:00

hey guYs tOdaY wAs okay lah...woke in the morin abit early cos i had to pass tasha the psp...i was meeting her around 8+++ so i wen to meet her at the mrt and frm there we walked to yishun mac and then angel joined us i bought hotcakes for tasha and i eneded up sharing wif her:) so yea lter she and angel left for sch so i sent them to the mrt station and i went home to get ready for my interview at rasta sentosa at 1.45pm so yeai got ready and left my hse around 12.30 and i reached harbourfront at 1.30 i think so i met zul and we went to the subway at there to meet the rest then we all later wen to the ferry terminal to take our bus to rasta sentosa.......
during that whole journey alot of things were runin thourgh my head....so the interview was like kinda short i thought it was like gonna take ages but it was like a 45min interview onli:) so then after my interview i got a call frm juliana and she like saying that she was at vivo at she wanted to meet me and at first i was like thinkin hw she noe that i was at sentosa theni realise that i told the other day:) then wen she first saw me she came and give me a big hug and she said i hope you feel better and i was like ohkkkay then i asked for what and she said i looke disturbed and i was like oh! then later we walked around for awile then i bought for her lunch..then she told me that she ran away from home cos she needed to be alone and i was like...so was like advising her! then i asked why she like me and she said i was cute and veri good to her and i said that i cheat on girls and i cant nvr be trusted and she jus sai i dun care! then i was like okay! so then later she came bak wit me to yishun cos she was gonna me her mum at there...we reached yishun and se said she wanted to send me all the way under my blk and i was like okay up to you...then wen we reached she gave a hug for like 1min and she said everythin will be fine and i jus smiled and went home:) the other day tasha told me that she and mark went their seperate ways but (not and offical break-up) and i was like mhmm i hope shes fine anyways i will be here tasha if you feel like talking....:) i cant wait for the chalet another 5days:) peace out everyone

(I aM hEre FoR a ReASOn cAuSe He AinT FucKin BrEatHin)

~CraZy_RaSc@l~

hmmm days like tis blOW MY sTreSs aWaY

2008-09-15T07:58:00.000-07:00

hey guys today was fun...i woke up in the morning and i was like hvin this strong pain on my hand i didnt reali care abt it...so yea i was meetin tash and angel later in the afternoon so yea! priya cAlled around2++ she said she wanted to meet me so i said in a polite manner "HELL NO" hehe yup thats me:) so yea i went to bath took my time changed and wen out of my hse...so i went to interchange to take my bus then saw my makkals they and we talked for awhile or so they said there was this bbq coming up for my fren b'dae and they wanted to go and stuff so yea...after all that my bus came i took it! so i reached bp and then i met "tASHA WASHIE" she brought to were angel was and then i sat there wit angel while tasha wen hme to change...i sat there seeing her eat while i was like gonna faint wasnt feelin well wit alot of things in my head :(
yup so yea first i thought i did smething wrng cos tasha was kinda firece today in the first! so yea we waited for the bus to go to causeway in the bus me and tasha nvr reali talked haha! so wen we reached causeway i was like okay then she smiled i was phewwww no bomb gonna explode:)
i had a great time wit tasha today it jus make me forget all the things that were goin through my head!!! she came to yishun later on cos she wanted to get smethin frm john little then wen she bought it i jus felt like sendin her hme dun reali no why but i jus wanted to :) so in the bus i laid my hand around her wen her head touched my hand i jus felt she was thinkin too many things(always like tat) then i jus felt that one day or in a next life i wuld wan her to be my gf! hehe so yea after that i reached hme then i met my fren at yishun coffee shop i jus was so happy today thx to that TASHA WASHIE:)

BE THE BEST.FUCK THE REST
(cRaZy~RaScaL)

OnE DaY wE WilL dAnCe WiT The LiONs

2008-09-12T06:54:00.001-07:00

hey guys today started out okay...today my third sis b'dae we kinda like celebrated! today morning woke up didnt feel like goin sch so i didnt go hehe...so if i stayed at hme that priya would come find me and ask me go out wif her which i didnt wan! so yea i asked ccl where she was goin after sch and she said she was goin to tasha hse to do project so i asked if i could tag along and she said yes so i was goin to their hse at 2++ so i wen and watch NEVER BACK DOWN...so damn nice sia! yea so i wen to bath after the movie(sori no deatils on hw i bathe) lol so yea after that i wen and changed then i left early cos i had to handle a problem at my sec sch then after that i took the bus dwn to bp and then headed up to her hse at there i was sitting at her chair playin psp hehe she was like so shy again dun noe why! she is cute wen she is shy:) so yea then later we went to bpp ntuc to get ccl mac n cheese but they didnt hve so she wen to bought bake rice! then later we headed up to her hse we watched tv and the two girls dozed off lol tasha was sleeping near my lap so yea i pat her on her head while she was sleeping:)she is not evil wen she is a sleep lol! then later i recived a msg frm juliana she said she wanted to meet me then i told her that i was out and couldnt meet her was lazy lah! then later wen i went to get my sister gift i saw her at the mac she saw me and she came and talked to me so we chated for a abt 15mins and i left she walked me hme (first tie girl walk me hme) so yea then later i wen hme! so yea tasha msged me earlier that she was "no one in my life" but then i told her that she SOMEONE IN MY LIFE AND THAT IS 100% true:) so yea now i wan go watch ghost whisper hehe she damn hot:) so yea take care everyone:)

(CrAZY~RaScAl)

NeVeR BaCk DoWn!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-09-11T09:13:00.000-07:00

hey guyz...today hmmm i woke up couldnt sleep so yea woke up quite late then was watchin tv and stuff! then later around 2+ wen to meet priya she was at funland so i went to meet her she wanted to see me i was actuali kinda weird....i got nthin to do at hme so i jus wen to meet her she takin care of me like her bf(FUCKIN ANOYING) so yea i had to tahan all of her for like until 6-7++ hmmmmm then later she came over to my hse she said she didnt wan go hme yet she wanted to lepak so yea we did for awhile then i told her that i am gonna meet my fren and i am leaving the hse so yea! has a gentlement i send her hme then later i came hme wen i sent her hme she kinda kissed me on the cheeks i was like wtf serious i dun noe why! so yea and tasha mmmmm she wasnt feelin well so i called her in the morning to check up on her....the girls wen over to her hse to do some project and she said that she can manage her project so yea good luck guys! after send priya hm i was walking hme wen i saw my ex and her bf so she shouted my name frm far and i was tryin to hide but too bad god gave me a big body :( boo hoo yea so she intoduced her bf to me and i was hi! he started staring at me thinking he sme kind of king so i stared bak and then my ex said ashe gotta go i had tis rage in me to hit him lol so yea came hme now usin th comp...2morrow sch dun whether i can go lazy lah hehe take care tasha okay good nights everyone

(cRaZy~RaScAl)

It HurTS wOunDs SO sOre......

2008-09-10T07:16:00.000-07:00

hey guys today i woke up wit my back hurting and i was hving fever my head hurt! so yea wen to sch has our prsentation to do i was shvering in class and i felt like my head was gonna explode! so yea i was like not in a mood for anything! wen my group turn came i wen up to present and this ppl in my classs try to shoot me wit question but wenver they ask i shoot them bak then the stfu! so yea i cant wait to leave class damn cold went out to meet the girls they wanted to talk abt our chalet which was like so close lookin forward to it also lah:) so yea later we went to the playground near the sch! the girls played the swing i was like jus sitting there looking around! i hve loads of things running through my head like wit priya,frens,family etc!! so yea i hve been lately under alot problems! and tasha things i hve changed i myself dun noe! maybe or maybe not! and now my daughter (ccl) i think she has a crush on my class mate boon peng she was asking me for his nubmer! hehe i guess it makes her happy!!! talked to the girl frm frenster which i met on msn! she so like a idian blond! lol so yeqa tmr hving my second round of prsentation and i am still not feeling well which sucks i jus wan to see james and tell him all my problems! i had tis dream which was super nice lah there was tis girl beside me and i was wit james i told him tis is my girl and he said i told you so! i jus woke up after that! i dint get to see her face the girl near my hight! lol and tasha i am not reali sure whether i hve changed but i dun think so...okay think tooo much bulb

(cRazY_rAsCal)

My HeArt BuRst InTo FiRe.......

2008-09-09T08:52:00.000-07:00

hey guyz...today was great woke up wit my leg damn pain:( then later wen to meet my frens at his hse!!! then later i was playin game at there boring sia! so later i though of msgin tasha cos i felt bad for being mean to her yesterday night! i didnt had sch today but tasha had so yea! i though of meeting her cos i had tis feeling that she was felling troubled so i msged her whether she wanted to meet me...at around 5+++ thats wen i was watchin power rangers damn nice lah got omega power rangers and cool...okay nvm abt tat so yeA i met them at yishun mac....i saw ccl and tasha then i saw angel and baris bag i thought they were goin out but they tagged along i guess? so yea we moved to LJS cos some guy was sitting at our place at mac and it was damn hot outside! tasha was being weird at first dun noe why leh she didnt dare to look at me! hehe then later she talk then shy,talk then shy and continue aiyoh ayioh!!!so yea we were sitting at mac palnning our chalet wat to buy and stuff! then later we were waiting for bari after he came we left...ccl and tasha took train bak home so i was goona meet my cousin she was hving some problems i guess! but before that i sent the girls to the mRT and the best part was wen tasha steped my injured leg i was like "whoa Piang eh" hehe she was veri shy dun noe why sia! anyways after seeing my cousin wen to see my makkals and now hme gonna msn and then go out again:) night life!

(CrazY_RaScAL)

HavE mErcY oN mE wHen My HeaRt tUrNs cOld...:)

2008-09-08T04:28:00.000-07:00

hey hey......today was fun i had a freakin oral frm NEA! so damn fucking easy haha yesterday i had to stay up all night to finsih my freaki project slept around 2+++....and yea today i had to stay back in sch to finish up our final stuff for the project! had fun also and i saw the girl who added me on frenster we talked for aawhile and she asked for my msn hope to see her online later:) lalala anywayz saturday priya told me smethin which bothers me alot she said wen she kissed bf she said it was like kissing me for the first time! lol anyways i just told her its just for a time onli and dun ever the tell a guy tis his heart will break and her bf is my close makkals brother!so yea! so today i went home wit angel we ate at kfc and headed home! okay ima gonna eat and then lalala good day ppls

(CrazY_Lover)

I HvE LoSt eVeRyThIng?

2008-09-04T21:38:00.001-07:00

hey guys i didnt update my blog for quite a time:) so yea yesterday i had my mcp i was kinda bump on wat happen on wed cos i saw mark and tasha being close and everything reali hurt my heart to the core and tis stupid me was upset i am such a dumb fucker!!!!mark and tasha i bf and gf if they hve veri intimate realitonship is their problem is not has if your a bf i am such a dumb fucker i hve lost everythin in my life my frens and my family nowdays irritating me i jus hope i can see james soon i think tis year my b'dae i will be sitting in the cementry ear his stone:) and tasha i reali didnt meant wat i said all that nonsenes which cam out of my mouth jus think that i am dog barking to myself anyways i am reali sori.....i reali reali reali reali reali reali reali reali sorri....if you dun wanna see me or talk to me i understand tis dumb fucker needs it...reali sory for distrubin ur life i am reali sorry!!!!but.....nvm thx for being there for me in my life tasha i reali appreciate it...take care okay!!!! until we meet

i am incomplete witout you!!!!

2008-09-02T06:35:00.001-07:00

Empty spaces fill me up with holes
Distant faces with no place left to go
Without you within me I can't find no rest
Where I'm going is anybody's guess

I tried to go on like I never knew you
I'm awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I'm going to be is incomplete

Voices tell me I should carry on
But I am swimming in an ocean all alone
Baby, my baby
It's written on your face
You still wonder if we made a big mistake

I tried to go on like I never knew you
I'm awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I'm going to be is incomplete

I don't mean to drag it on, but I can't seem to let you go
I don't wanna make you face this world alone
I wanna let you go (oh-oh)

I tried to go on like I never knew you
I'm awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I'm going to be is incomplete

Incomplete......

(uSElEss bOY)

CaN I dRop DEaD??????

2008-09-02T06:06:00.000-07:00

hey guys today was blah!!!!i had my choux paste exam its was great my grup everyone passed:) then later i wen to eat lunch wif bari,angel,yusriand the other guy frm pastry(forget his name lah) then later i head bak to sch to meet ccl and w8 for tasha...i sat wif ccl and we talked she is a veri troubled girl and she has lots of thoughts running through her i reali miss the old "meow" ccl and i jus read her blog and she said she gonna get over him thats a great news to hear actuali its wonderfull:) she getting over himm for good!so yea coming bak we w8ted for tasha....tasha was veri happy today:) which was good to see cs i dun reali like to see her sad it jus dosent make my day...so we sat at the block opp our sch then later we headed in the bus bak to bp isat in the bus wif her and i was kinda sleepy cos i didnt reali sleep welll:( so i put tash to sleep on my shoulder and i oso knocked off then i while during my bus ride i felt a pain on my lips i saw her lip and my lip were connected errrrr(kissing) she actuali bite my lip and i guess she was dreaming abt mark wen she did that hehehe i noe it wasnt on purpose but i felt kinda happy:) then later wen we reached bp i sat at the bus stop wif her and i dun noe wat i said and then she said yea priya better...that reali fucked me up!!!!and then later she said "oh yea she has a boyfren" to tell the truth it cos of me she has a boyfren i sat wif her one on one i told her that i can and nvr forget tasha and i wanted her to date my frens brother who likes her i told her to date a guy like him then date a useless guy like me!!!! and on teachers day wen i went bak i saw both of them and she looked happy:) and tasha no girl can be compared to you NO ONE!!!! youre jus one girl which is hard to find!!!! and i hve to confess i am the one who kissed her in the bus i guess i got carried away....i am useless! sori tasha i am and idiot!!! maybe i shuld jus drop dead or quite tis course so that tasha could concentrate in her life and on mark and she dun hve to think abt me and i wont hve to irritate her life:) anyways good luck guyz and happy for ccl you strong:)

(useless boY)

WhY dO i LoVe HeR..ShE aSked!!!

2008-08-28T07:33:00.000-07:00

hey guyz today was an okay okay day....i was actuli kinda happy to go to sch dun noe why wan to "study" i guess :) hehehe! so yea i hve my menu cost planning was abit boring at first then it got a bit more fun:) later after class i wen to eat while w8ting for ccl and angel and also was w8ting for my dear tasha...she was abit moody cos of angel i guess! tasha she isnt angry wit you and i noe its a big mistake to show her anger on you! anyways jus now you asked me why i like you...i do cos of the all the girl i hve dated your the ONE.....you jus keep grounded on earth no girl has ever done that and you complete me but i dun noe abt you! and i oso read ur blog abt you blaming yourself for everythin happening in ur family!!!!! hunny thats all got nthin to do wit you okay ur family noes wat a great daughter and grand daughter they hve! they all reali do love you like you always tell me but jus smetimes they dun noe wat to say and the words they say scare you i noe that feeling!!!ur great daughter tasha!!! you dun hve to call urself a bitch that word dun even hve the rights to be near ur name hehe....okay tasha dun think too much!!!yur grand mother will still love you no matter wat even you treating her tis way she wil always think of the time you and her were close and lovely trust me tasha she will love you no matter wat and she will always be proud of hving a gr8 grand daughter hun okay:) and for your b'dae it will happe no matter wat you say i will make tat day and unforgetable day in ur life okay:) your family do love you and trust me sooner or later everything will come to hw you said it was wen you were young god has planned things for you okay da......you will always be your dads and mine LITTLE PRINCESS OKAY......take care da
(moNKeYY bO)

its OKAy Lah

2008-08-27T08:25:00.001-07:00

hey guyz long time seens i updated my blog...lazy:) so 2day woke up ealry got rdy to go to sch! then i was like so ealry for menu planing course today first time thats why it rained today i guess...so we watched my favourite show kitchen nightmare then later was dwn to copying notes...okay lah today was goin fast saw tasha and the gang has usual that dumbdumb ccl kept thinkin abt luke!!! 2day i natasha told me that she wasnt gonna me MARk but wat the hack she wen in the end i was actuali kinda w8ting for class to end cos i wanted to see he face it would keep warm cos she my sunshine(eh eh) so yea then in the end my day was still cold! i had nose bleed again dun noe why maybe i might drop dead one day hehehe....so i was heading home ealry which was a a amzaing thin cos i nvr been hme tis early :) so i was walkin hme wen i saw priya its been a long time since we talked and she was like apoligizing that she didnt metioned abt james she cried and i of course said its okay!!!!but haix we talked for a while and i sent her to the interchange:) but in the en of the day i miss tasha:( i guess she dosent she a has a own love life and her own boyfren to miss....anywyz godd nights and sweet dream ppl:)

(mONKeYY BoYY)

if I WeRe To ChOoSe BeTweEn LiFe aNd YoU i wUld Use My LaSt bReaTh To SaY i LoVe YoU Tash

2008-08-22T08:18:00.000-07:00

hey guyz today hasnt been my day....today is my deaperted fresn b'dae i hvein tryin not to think abt all the stuff like on his b'dae we wuld always go to his grand ma hse for dinner and tis year its me and his picture bro happy 25TH birthday ypu old bastard take of urself up there man and over tasha oso ur sister!!!remeber:)i hve been hiding loads of things inside me today we ecalirs today and off all the days we had to do james favourite pastry i mean wow!!!so yea seeing tasha made me jus thin abt her she coughed badly so i was thinkin hw she as during my prac i wuld stone off half way jus thinkin abt her am i goin bonkers? i did for a her heart shape eclair and i did a J eclair for my james!!! i hope he saw it and he better like it:) jus now me and tasha were on msn i dun noe why but poems jus started pouring in my mind wen i thought of her so i showed her some and i went to search for some!!!!durin the talk she asked why she deserverd all tis kindness she does cos she is my tasha and she deserves the best has shes the other loved one i hve speacial loved one:) we were actuali hvin a small quarrel tasha my dear you will and always deserve the best for me trust me cos now i hve lost james ur there for me and i will be there for you da:) james always told me tis WHEN YOU HVE TO MATURE BE WEN ITS SERIOUS MATTER WEN HVIN FUN LET UR IMMATURE SIDE TAKE CONTROL so tasha ur always my little tasha no matter wat da okay....and veri sori again loves(happy b'dae my james)

If I weRe tO dIe 2MorRow i WiLL dIE wIf a SmiLE oN mY Face cOs I HVe YoU In My LiFe tAsha

2008-08-21T08:16:00.000-07:00

hey guyz i am so happy i noe i hve been like shit for the past few days cos of my frens death but i hve been to trying to get bak to my normal self but it jus wont be the same wit out my brother!!!! anyways hve been hanging out wif tasha loads hehe:) cos of her i am watchin p.s. i love you i dun reali like romance movie but watchin the movie is so damn nice i am now in part four so yea and for these few days i hve been missng my tasha lots dun noe why but yea i guess i think of her everytime:) hehe i miss her now oso:( i wan see her and ask her hug me until i got thin hehe i jus like getting hugs frm me tasha anyways tasha hehe i missh missh missh you so much that now we cant tok in msn poo hoo damn freakin computer of hers....JAMES tis better not be ur wrk wakaka i miss you man:) and tasha yees see you tmr monkeeyyyy girl of to contiue the movie
(monkEyyy BoYY)
P.S I Love You

I aM glAd Ur In My Life

2008-08-19T08:31:00.000-07:00

hey guyz now days wen ever the place i go to or the pictures i watch reminds me of james!!!! i cant concentrate on anything jus brgs back all those memories i spent wit my brother:( 2day i didnt had sch and tasha wasnt feeling well so i brought her to yishun polyclinic we took the number and waited for to see the doctor.....the doctor was fucked up he showed attitude i feel like addmitting a doctor into that veri polyclinic punch his face argh!!!! then later ccl joine us....hvin tasha in my life now means alot to me:) i take care of her wen ever she is sick or jus unhappy i be by her side no matter wat cos after losin my tis fren made me go closer to my tasha again which is so nice:) i found the band which james gave me for my bdade wen he wen to thai wif his girl! i wore it today wen i wen out wit tasha....i always look up into the sky to see a star which i think is that dumb fuck james lol:) anyways today goin bak to bp! was weird tasha slept on my shoulder then i oso dozed off i guess then i woke up my eys i saw her lips and mine together i was so shy i actuali wanted to stay in that positon hehehe (shisssssh) wakaka but i jus move away lol so shy arh!!! anyways i am jus glad that tasha is in my life and i ...............okay hehehe good nights and sleep tigh my dear tasha get well soon sunshine shuld always be bright and happy no sad sad:) okie bubye

(mokey boy boy)

WhY yOU Hve To LEaVe wItouT me.....

2008-08-18T07:59:00.000-07:00

hey guyz my life has been like shit...firtly i lost my close fren witout me knowing!!!!he died like1week ago and the best thing is tat i onli found it out after three days of his death non of my freakin frens told me abt tis! his name is james my close bestie ever since sec1!!!!!!!!!!!! and now he jus poofed gone life is so unfair he told me like few days ago that he was gonna propose to his girl on new years day and now gone!! why is god like tis it is veri unfair!!!!argh i hve been hanging outlately wit tasha moslty cos i cant tell my family smethin like that has happen in my life and wen i am wit tasha i can jus tell it out!!!i feel like shoutin and cryin and goin berserk but i am jus tryin to be strong!!!!i didnt even saw his face for one last fuckin time!!!! my other so called frens tried calling me and msg me but i jus dun reply maybe if i die i dun even tell them!!!!!tasha is oso goin through some deep shit he family is accusing her for stealin but wat in the fucking hell you guyz dun fucking give her cash and she has to pwn her jewels to jus get money for herself to survive i mean seriously wtf!!! james always was there fr me wen i am dwn so now i priority no longer will be other they will be TASHA and james girl!! i wll take care of them:) now tasha is also not feeling well again i hope she gets well soon!!! today she slept on me shoulder was like WOW! so nice arh damn shiok shiok:) hehehe i onli hope that one day i can show james girl that i and tasha are together at last:) and james can see us frm above take care guyz and life IS "perfect" tasha pls take care da:)

(frens till we meet)

You're the voice I hear inside my head ( for you ta***)

2008-08-14T08:37:00.000-07:00

Everytime I think I'm closer to the heart Of what it means to know just who I am I think I've finally found a better place to start But no one ever seems to understand I need to try to get to where you are Could it be you're not that far? You're the voice I hear inside my head The reason that I'm singing I need to find you I gotta find you You're the missing piece I need The song inside of me I need to find you I gotta find you Oh yeah You're the remedy I'm searchin' hard to find To fix the puzzle that I see inside Painting all my dreams the color of your smile When I find you it will be alright I need to try to get to where you are Could it be you're not that far? You're the voice I hear inside my head The reason that I'm singing I need to find you I gotta find you You're the missing piece I need The song inside of me I need to find you I gotta find you Been feeling lost Cant find the words to say Spendin' all my time stuck in yesterday Where you are is where I wanna be Oh next to you, and you next to me Ohh... I need to find you Yeah You're the voice I hear inside my head The reason that I'm singing I need to find you (I need to find you) I gotta find you (yeah) Your the missing piece I need The song inside of me I need to find you I gotta find you(I gotta find you) You're the voice I hear inside my head The reason that I'm singing I need to find you (I need to find you) I gotta find you (I gotta find you) Your the missing piece I need The song inside of me I need to find you I gotta find you Yeaeaahhh I gotta find you... hey tasha again i like tis song so i dedicated tis song for you also your the voice in my head:) anywayz take care da i am always here for you da i noe now days ur life is not sweet a bit rotten jus take it easy life hasnt always to be easy:) ppl jus dun reali noe you! escpecially ur mom i hope ur mom noes hw valuble you are...i NOE:x good nights ppl off to sleep tired:( take care MONKEyyy GIRl

(monKeyy BoY)

wHeN i Am WiT YoU (MoNkeyyy GirL)

2008-08-13T07:48:00.000-07:00

Saw you walk in to the roomThought i'd try to talk to you Babe am i ever glad you wanted me too Its been two years to the day half the time I've been away i know I'm not there enoughbut that is gonna changecause I'm coming back to show you thatI'm keeping the promise that i madeWhen i'm with you I'll make every second countcause i miss you, whenever your not aroundwhen i kiss you i still get butterfliesyears from nowI'll make every second count when I'm with youyeah we've had our ups and downsbut we've always worked them outbabe am i ever glad we got this far nowstill i'm lying here tonightwishing i was by your sidecause when i'm not there enoughnothing feels rightso i'm coming back to show you that I'll love you the rest of my lifewhen i'm with you I'll make every second countcause i miss you, whenever your not aroundwhen i kiss you i still get butterfliesyears from nowi'll make every second count when i'm with youwhen i'm with you whatever it takesim not gonna break the promise i madewhen i'm with you I'll make every second countcause i miss youwhen i'm with you I'll make every second countcause i miss you, whenever your not aroundwhen i kiss you i still get butterfliesyears from nowi'll make every second count when i'm with youwhen i'm with youwhen i'm with you when i'm with you........tis song is for my monkeyyyy girl hehe its true the lines will explain to you:) your family is giving you loads of problems i noe no matter wat jus hang in there everything will be fine! i am here for you......try talkin to your mom 1 on 1 let her noe ur feeling and stuff wen she treats you like tis explain to her! tell her that you hve changed.....tell her that the way that she is talkin to you hurts you alot da! jus do war i say for my sake i noe it will wrk out i hve tis strong strong feeling da for my sake talk to her:) and dun anythin stupid i am here for you jus call me! okie da tis song is for you tak care see you:)

(MoNkeyy BoyY)

YoU Desevre mOrE tHen WaT hE TrEaTs YoU!!!!!

2008-08-11T08:00:00.000-07:00

hey yo, today was great i met up wit angel ,ccl,tasha i was actuali quit angry wit tasha after reading her blog! but wen i saw her i just couldnt get angry dun noe why:) they were actuali hanging out to do some sch project i guess? she didnt eat so i bought for her lunch! she didnt hve cash and she wen to pwn her rings! i felt bad cos i couldnt help her:( then later we were talkin to tasha abt hw MARk treats her....tasha is a gr8 girl and she dosent desevre to be treated tat way and to be spoken tat way! i reali felt angry, grrrrrrr! then later we went to watch batman was sooooo damn fun tis was my first time watching movie wit tasha(date) hehehe then later mark msged her scolding her in vulgarites cos she didnt msge him bak or smething!wtf! dude she is a girl treat her wit respect...they msged each other and they broke up( i think so) i was actuali kinda happy for her! but i knew that she could not break up wit him so easily.....but to tell you the truth tasha you are worth more then hw marks treats you......i told my frens wat happen and they are so happy for you...so tasha dun caRE wat others thing abt your break up some ppl out there are happy for you even the ppl you dun noe!!!!! take care:)

(monkeeeey boyyy)

tOniGhts ThE Night i FaLLed FoR yOu aGaiN....

2008-08-08T08:42:00.000-07:00

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fightingCould it be that we have been this way beforeI know you don't think that I am tryingI know you're wearing thin down to the coreBut hold your breathBecause tonight will be the night that I will fall for youOver againDon't make me change my mindOr I won't live to see another dayI swear it's trueBecause a girl like you is impossible to findYou're impossible to findThis is not what I intendedI always swore to you I'd never fall apartYou always thought that I was strongerI may have failedBut I have loved you from the startOhhhhBut hold your breathBecause tonight will be the night that I will fall for youOver againDon't make me change my mindOr I won't live to see another dayI swear it's trueBecause a girl like you is impossible to findIt's impossibleSo breathe in so deepBreathe me inI'm yours to keepAnd hold onto your words'Cause talk is cheapAnd remember me tonightWhen you're asleepBecause tonight will be the night that I will fall for youOver againDon't make me change my mindOr I won't live to see another dayI swear it's trueBecause a girl like you is impossible to findTonight will be the night that I will fall for youOver againDon't make me change my mindOr I won't live to see another dayI swear it's trueBecause a girl like you is impossible to findYou're impossible to find........hehehe its actuali a song:) for tasha today was my gr8test day ever i enjoyed my day so much.....i am jus sooooo happy hope i and and tasha could be together again:) hehe wen i hang out wit her nowdays i tend to noe much more better dun noe wether she likes hanging out wit me but i do hve loads of fun hanging out wit the bulbu tasha:) take care everyone and tasha tis song is for you:) sishsssssss take care:)

(MonKeyy BOyYY)

i got HUGgeD....:)

2008-08-06T06:34:00.000-07:00

hey hey.....today jus been perf i had class in the morning! then later on i was suppose to hve a demo by some professional chefs...but didnt ended up being cancel....so i was gonna w8 for her but her class oso eneded ealry so we were heading towards lavender to buy that army bag which i was like dying to get....tasha oso came:) SO YEA then wen we reached the place we found the bag so i actuali shared money wit tasha but she oso wanted the bag but she didnt hve enough cash so i actuali gave her the bag she kept denying tat she dun wan it but deep dwn she confirm wan it!!!!! so i kept forcing her to take it...at last she took it:) then later we send angel bak to yishun so i went hme to change cos i was suppose to meet my sis for dinner and my frens at marsling so i send tasha home we talked and i made her laugh......then errmmmmm hmmmm I GOT HUGGED been w8ting for a long time:) soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo happy at last after that i went at met my sis for dinner then i cam hme didnt wen to meet me frens hehehe:) i am sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo happy happy haapy:) take tasha see you tmorrow and take care to all my readers:)

monkeyyyyy boy:)

sad day and she not feeling well:(

2008-07-31T08:03:00.000-07:00

hey guyz today was jus a sad day my class sir was leaving us today he was joining another sch we made cakes for him and bought gives for him we took pics and hung out he gave speeches on everyone he said that i am "improving and becumin better" expected lah hehehe:) then later he bought for us tibits and stuff so we ate and he left:( then later i was goin to vivo to do me end of the project....then at first i saw tasha she didnt look good so i asked angel she said she wasnt feelin well and was like shit! i wanted to send her hme but i had to rush to alot of places i also had to send my fuckin hp to the shop....i asked angel to check up on her....i couldnt concentrate wen i was at vivo i kept thinking hw tasha was doin maybe i jus crazy lah:) but yea i reali jus couldnt...then later on i kept callin her and checking up on her and keeping her company on the phone.....she told wat that MA** did i was damn pist lah she is ur girlfren after all which is first you hving fun or takin care of ur girl? she is suppose to be ur first priority!!! if she was mine i wuld hve taken care of her !!!! haix but yea i am suppose to go out but i jus cant i keep thinkin hw she is doin... i hope she get well soon:)

mY sIster IS pregnant.....

2008-07-30T06:07:00.000-07:00

helooooo 2day i nvr go sch not feelin well haha! and my sister is pregnant hehe tat suprising but yea i hope its a boy gonna turn him into a bad boy hehe:) and yea i am not feelin well actauli priya wanted to meet me and bring go eat soup...but na didnt go lazy i think! coked creaM pasta for me sister.....i like kinda miss the girl! and yea 2morrow sch so this is jus my shortest blog cya guy:)

yOy wILL aLWays BE my BaBy

2008-07-27T01:32:00.001-07:00

heyyyyyy....i hve like not update my blog lazy lah:) haha yesterday was fun cos i hanged out wit ccl,angel and tasha was fun we went to vivo then wisma....we ate at subway and tat monkey girl didnt had money again so i bought for cookies hehe...i reali think sometimes tat i wish i was mark cos he is so lucky to hve tat kind of girl in his life...i may hate him and stuff but i still think tat he is one lucky guy...hehe some guyz are jus lucky and yea for tis past few days i hve been like listining tio david cook "you will always be my baby" hehe always remind me of her yea we actuali took bus frm taka all the way to yishun i sat wit tasha so we listen song and took pics but actuali the journey was soooooo short i actuali didnt wan her to go dwn:( sho fast haix i no iam not her guy but i jus like spending time wit her...hehe anyways yea lazy type cya around everyone......

(monkeyyyy boy)

dUmb StUfFs taT I dO....

2008-07-23T06:20:00.000-07:00

hey guyz today was a gr8 day first i wen to sch early today cos i had p.e i played floorbaal tats me favourite game besides hockey! i forget to bring extra clothes for p.e dumb me :) then after that i had menu planning class was veri veri veri long...what is diszzzz:) then me my classmates decide to go to changi airport cos the brasil national squad was coming to singapore after class i actuali wanted to send hme tasha hehe shish!! cant lah if i send her hme nvr go wit them they confirm angry wan so no choice lah wat is diszzz! was a long long ride frm clementi to changi airport:( then we rush all the way there was so damn crowded woha piang eh:) then we saw them i start shouting dun noe wat also like wooooo and dun wat else lol! hehe after tat we went hme i was alone in the bus thinking of wat i said to my mum yesterday like wat tasha said i hve to think fmr my mums point of view and i did i knew that i wrong so (i said i am sori mama i never ment to hurt you i nvr mean to make you cry tonight) hehehe i oso kinda misshed that bulbs...hehe

(monkkkkeeyyy boyy)

I aM Not a GooD sOn:( haix lost in my own world

2008-07-22T06:12:00.000-07:00

hey guyz....hehe today was gr8 lah actuali i am the amboir which mean the head chef in my kitchen...i gonna be the head chef till next week guess my sir wans me to get more experince:) and tasha wasnt feeling well so i took care of her i wen to pick her up frm home then we both chow to sch, we listen to songs in the bus and earpiece always seem to like her:) wen we reached sch i bought her food to eat cos she was hving flue and she look dull so i made her eat until her stomach big big sia lol wakaka then after tat she went for her class and i also did actuali today my group we didl like tea time so wqas a bit relax i had to run up and down pastry kicthen and amber kicthen cos not enough pastry hehe but get to see also lah...(hehe master plan) then after severing the packs we close amber then i waited for wit my fren....she had to bake bread so was abit long lah she was alrdi sick so dun noe whether she was fine lah but wen she came out she look good not sick but i guess she still abit sick lah huh! and yea my mum actauli thought i was skipping sch i didnt like tat so i came hme and told her off my heart was damn heavy after telling that to her she came and talk things out wit me...ummmm yea i oso send that bulbs tasha home bought honey chicken and we ate then later we chill.. waited for my bus! the after wen i was abt to take the bus i watng for my drhugs (which mean hug) hehe she huged me then i dun noe why i carried her wen i hugged her cho fun hehe:) i hve benn like so open tis few days watever i think in my mind i jus say it out!!!! hehe cant w8 to go sch 2morrow:)

(monkeyyyy boyyy)

vIvO+BulB+friends=FUN Fun

2008-07-18T18:04:00.000-07:00

hey guyz lonng time nvr update.....so yesterday was like my gr8 day ever so happy:) after my sch prac we all headed to vivo my classmates and bulb so damn fun! we walked around then ccl wanted to my drinks so i followed her and bulbs to go buy drink...then we talked and hanged out so damn fun fun fun...i jus couldnt stop starring at bulb dun noe why leh guess she must be too pretty....yea rite:) playing onli.....but yea it was so fun its been a long time since i and her hanged out...days like tis make sho happy...then later i send her home so we sat at the bustop w8tin for the bus we chatted and its fun lah....i didnt wan to go:( the day end so fast...freakin sushi! the i got tis big big big big hug frm her i was like melting butter:) sho sho sho sho sho sho sho nice...woot anywayz lazy type alrdi:) i love my life rite now :) hving gr8 sister and bulb and family:) hehe take care evryone and bulb especailly you:) okie dokey update some other time :)

(moNkkkey boy) :)

blah blah blah..dun noe wat title to write :)

2008-07-10T06:30:00.000-07:00

hey guyz....today was fun had class in the morning was boring a bit but fun joked around in the class made a bit more fun! then later after tat i wen wit my classmates to our usual hang out..we hang out there like a couple of hours...tasha started sch like 1pm so i called her and asked where she was so i met up wit her outside my sch! theni walked wit her into the sch....she went to change into her chef-u......she was actuali rushin...she was late! haix that buld always" early"...so then later i hanged out wit angel and ccl we sat near the sch locker and talk wit my class mates also.......then later my fren fm ank mo kio ite say he outside my sch...then i go see him he came wit his bike all the way frm ank mo kio to jus get a number frm tis girl frm my sch! after all tat he left theni also chow......so we were talkin then tasha GUY came i was sitting wit alina and i was actuali gonna confrot tat dude.....but i couldnt i didnt wanna do wat tasha didnt like after she confirm will angry and happiness matters to me.....so alina siad lets leave then we chow!and the best part is i found out tashas guy was studying in the sch where i got loads of makkals..muhahaha but ha i wont do anything! anywayz my sch days goin gr8 not in any deep shit so far....hehe bulb pls come sch earlier:)

(monkeyyyy boyy)
(bulb confirm will laugh)

if i had heard wat you scolded her!!

2008-07-09T05:51:00.000-07:00

hey guyz.....today was jus gr8! i wen to sch was suppose to hve p.e but it was cancel cos our teacher had a tournament to attend! its like wtf cos we came sch early and we had to w8 like 2hrs plus for our next class to attend...was fun jus hanging out wit the guyz! we hang in our classs room joking and stuff.....class was like so freakin boring! like WOW damn boring sia....jus couldnt w8 for class to end! once i heard tis was the last slide tat was wen it was like wooooooot damn shiok! "SHE" was w8ting outside for me i think so.....then we all wen back home together! the best part was wen we were at jourong mrt station....."HER" guy was at there also so we took the same train i was like ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHH! i didnt wan to see him i was jus talkin to angel and bari.....he didnt even look at me i jus lookin at him but he didnt! i was jus pist i dun noe i hw i felt but jus tick tock tick tock like a time bomb! it had nthin to do wit "HER" i was jus not myself! i reali felt bad wen she said sori cos it reali had nthin to do wit her! then choa chu kang came then i like wanted to talk to her but then she gave me tis BIG hug was like WOW!!!!!!! then later she got down the train...i was actuali gonna send her home...and she jus kept askin you coming along...i jus couldnt i no i wuld blow! so i jus followed angel and bari back to yishun! then later she msged angel saying that he soclded her a slut!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i mean after all she your girl dude hve some respect for her........if i was there wen he told her tat word i wuld hve gone Kun FU panda over him! hehehe i am serious i wuld hve reali did smething......i reali dun like ppl who talk bad abt some one i care or lo** ......sorry tasha:)

(monkeYY BOY)
the name you like calling me :)

Gr8 Day/ yOu DeSerVed iT mA FuC***

2008-07-07T06:09:00.000-07:00

hey guyz....today first day of sch again! it WAS super duper great got to hang out frens again!now gonna cook in amber kitchen.....gonna be like "hells kitchen" muahaha:( anywayz today we sat and talk things out the girls...i am happy at last angel and tasha talk things out! i noe tasha reali treasures her girls she's wit....freinds and family are always thicker then blood:) tats wat one of my (makkals) told me! and guess wat i didnt tell you guyz tis but my frens brother got wacked up and ended up in hospital....after 3 days he is recoverd! veri powderful:)

and today my girlfreind(close fren lah) boyfriend was w8ting outside sch he alrdi had trouble wit me and he showed his anger by hitting the ppl around me! so my fren was wit him he msg me tat he was w8ting outside sch....ppl like him who got no balls will come in group! i saw him and i jus walked he didnt dare do anything to me! the n later i called my fren saying tat tyhe fellow was outside sch! i was eating lunch wit them then they say he wanna go find him then they go they didnt wan me go:( and the only thing i was afraid that he was gonna do smething to "HER" so i asked my fern to look after her and that fellow didnt even dare go near HER wen he saw HER! then later i meet him at yishun...we talk and stuff happen! so he wont diturb her agin! i make sure he wont! my frens told me tat they will take care of him! even the group he was wit didnt back him up....

so you desverd it ma FUC***

(hve a gr8 day ppl i noe i am)

wOOt.....cLArEnCe aKa BoiBoi isBAck

2008-07-01T06:44:00.000-07:00

hey guyz...u hve read my blog and its all abt "little princess" and stuff but nw i hve changed!!!!i knew by being tis way hurts my frenz(makkals) the other day my closet fren call me and talk me...i found out tat i was missing out on all the fun:) haha they reali miss the" stupid and irritating" boiboi lol....the girl frm my sec sch start msging me again....once you lost a feeling for someone and you had another feeling for someone that lost feeling cant come back!!!!! i cut my hair also.....:( no more my tail onli got mini mini tail:( whoa piang eh:) anywayz tis is jus parts and parcel of life.....jus hve to move along but honestly i will not go on wit a girl my heart jus wont forget her....aiyah!!!!! anywayz boiboi is back :) hehehe

(boiboi)

My LiFe Is MesSed Up!!!!!

2008-06-29T07:46:00.000-07:00

hey y'all i jus read her blog....i can see that she is happy wit her guy:) i am happy if she is happy.....you noe i gave that girl for her and my heart keeps tell me that it was a bad idea...but i jus feel its a goos idea...haix i am in like a lot of deep shit rite now!!!! my close girl fren boyfirend gonna get it frm me and my frens....my frens keep tellin me that i look like i lost smethin...yea i did!!!! i am jus lost in a my own world rite now!!!!! haix and angel b'dae 2morrow jus wanna tell her a HAPPY BIRTHDAY and i hope you and bari wuld stay together forever:) hope you grow taller also angel...muhaha

(haix)
nothings perfect in life

HaPpY HapPy.......SusHi

2008-06-26T06:47:00.000-07:00

hey hey....iwas at a class chalet frm the 24-26 june...my clas chalet rocked we has drinks games fun alots of them!!!i reali enjoyed stayin wit my frens at the chalet was so damn cool...and i wasnt reali like concentrating on the chalet i kept thinkin abt my "little princess" i heard she wasnt feeling well ikept checking up on her everyday...ccl also called me and msged me hw she was feeling veri pitiful sia she!! tis is hw life is! my class mates kept askin where was the "tall aneh" which was my little princess....i also had to settle things out wit my frens boyfriend...which i did today he said sori and left...everythings done now she can free.....2day i hanged out in the afternoon wit little princess and sindhu and her new guy(congrats to her) they look sweet together...we went to tekka to eat lunch while on the way my slipper torn...then tasha bought for me a slipper...(ty so much hun) i and her are okay okay lah...but its cool and now i am not feeling well fall sick aiyah....i think i gonna drop dead soon....muahaha okay take to all my readers and and hve a pleasent day

SuShi
(take care hun)

ToDaY JuS Weird......

2008-06-23T08:49:00.000-07:00

hey guyz today i was home until 1pm..then i went to meet angel,ccl,and bari guess who wasnt there? it was her!!! it jus felt weird i nvr been wit her gang witout her jus freakin weird....we sat at yishun mac i saw bari and angel they looked so sweet and cute.....atleats thier relationship worked out fine....anywayz now i noe hw ccl feels wen she is wit me and her(lamp post) anywayz i heard abt her and her guy getting back togther...congrats to her...yesterday the girl which i gave up for tasha called me...she read my blog and she asked me "so is it still a good choice u made for giving me up for her" i said yea it still is a GOOD choice and i kept the phone....this is hw life is there are always ups and downs...no easy way!!!!! (her=tasha) anywayz.....blah

boiboi

JuS...wow

2008-06-21T08:17:00.000-07:00

hey guyz remeber my "lilttle princess" we were together now "poof" gone!!!!!but nvr mind theres no girl which will take over her place in mind heart...dun noe why!!!! i will w8 for her until the day is rite....i dun noe why but she always in mind....

"dear god the only thing i ask is to hold her wen i am not around wen iam much too far away" this lyric is frm my favorite song which i dedicade to "her"

haix....

LoVe sLowLy sParKiNg?

2008-06-19T07:17:00.000-07:00

hey guyz.....today i wen to bp to meet tasha and angel and bari...i was damn excited to see my "little princess" i wen there to eat freakin hugry sia:) then after tat we sat down chat a bit at near my "little princess" blk....she brought down her JD....tat was damn cool!!!we drank wit orange juice didnt taste well:( but noe choice hehehe...then later we all send angel hme in the bus i didnt reali feel tat she was happy wit me...i always like seeing my "little princess" smilling and i will kill whoever makes her frown even if it was me..hehehe then while bari was walking wit angel hme i walked wit my "little princess" at nortpoint and guess wat i saw my 2nd ex girl sister she started starring at me and her...i jus walk away...i didint care wat was goin around me wen i am wit her dun why....all tat matter was her and making her happy:) then later i decided to send her hme...then in the bus i could feel some think sparking she laid on my shoulder while i put my hand around her....she slept for awhile like a little baby..then we reached her hse:( sadly i thought thebus would come late then it came sooo early and i hve to leave:( anywayz jus being wit you my "little princess" makes me forget the world:) hehehe love you loads

love you
(little princess)

yOuR LoVe Is NoT a LiE......

2008-06-18T05:40:00.000-07:00

hey again....its my dream come ture at last but i hve this feeling that i am forcing my "little princess" in to things....i reali love her and all:) i dun n0e why but always keep thinking abt her....wen i am wit my frens(makkals) i tend to just say her name out!!!i feel like a idiot....dun why must be goin bonkerz...i told my close fren abt it and she was veri happy!!!! but in the end i had to treat to them drink....the onli think i can say to my "little princess" is that now i am gonna make new memories in ur mind:) yesterday was the happiest day of my life....i jus jump around my hse like a guy high on drugs...haha....i jus dun noe why i didnt feel like this wit the other ex...jus YOU:) anywayz togther we can do this.....happy happy happy happy :)

love loads
(little princess)

UnTiL ThE DaY i DiE

2008-06-17T03:01:00.000-07:00

hey again.....its abt my "little princess" she keeps thinking that she not worth being cared!!!! and she says that she is a curse....tat reali gets me PISSED!!!! to tell her she is not a curse wen ever i go out wit her i am in luck SERIOUS....i dun noe hw to tell her tat but its true....i noe she still has feelings for****.......but to tell her the truth i will wait for her "until the day i die" i noe that i gave up my sec 3 dream girl for her was a good thing coz it jus makes me happy wen i am wit HER....i noe i am not matured but i can be i jus dun like to enjoy my life in a matured way..dun noe why?
but i can matured wen i need to be okay...i noe i hve been a ass for these past few days....and "little princess" your more WORTH then wat you think you are....i will wait for you no matter wat....jus take ur time and GET WELL SOON SICKY GIRL:)

****loads
(boiboi)

i JusT loVe hEr

2008-06-16T05:40:00.000-07:00

hey ppl.....today i was suppose to brg the girls to get a job and shangrila. but didnt go coz i didnt wan to disturb my chef during cooking hours! then later we went cinelisure to eat pasta mania...my "little princess" got high of drinking 7 taquilla shots yesterday night...and today she had a hangover she alrdi wasnt feeling well and she went and drink!!! her cough today reali sounded bad and i made her eat coz she didnt wan to eat...i also got shades for her hope she liked it:).... and she asked me why is there a point tat i like her...there shouldnt be a point for loving someone..love jus blooms in your heart wen you see the rite person:) and "little princess" get some rest.....

love loads
(mmmm..sushi)

Meet the ClemenTz and STupidness

2008-06-14T04:56:00.000-07:00

hey again....guess wat i brought my "little princess" to see my sisters... they talk alot of stuff and my sis sabo me by showing all my stupid photos. my sis all kinda like her they find her like a model pretty.....lol, we had a gr8 time... dun whether she had? i and her are now a bit close i am hanging out wit her most of my times:) my buds aka makkals hve seen her also...today i brought her out when to the beach then i wen overboard i got rough wit her she was sick and i actuali pushed her on the grass( wasnt on purpose) i irritated her :( veri sorc baby if u are reading this reali LoVe you :) guess wat i also got a job and my dad is like sooo "happy" and "proud" of me lol anyways sori for hurting you my"little princess" and get well soon :)

(CONGRATS TO MR AND MRS BARI)

love you
(little princess)

Its Abt LOve

2008-06-11T07:52:00.000-07:00

2day after her trip i wen and met her....was short but i made it last!!!!! jus was w8ting to see her....she and her cute smile oh my gosh!!!!!damn cute....my fren bari is reali in love wit angel!!! he changed for her which he didnt did for any girl! we fought tat tyme but now we are buds:)

for tat "little princess" i will give her time to forget the past...i will make a new memory for her tat she wont forget...for ur info "little princess" i wont change coz i am growing up wit three sis and i noe hw girls feel:) which sux at time...i feel like a ewwwwwww lol....but no matter wat sayang i wont change and wont like onther girl if she was the last girl in the earth

love ya"little princess"

StrEss sTresS....aiyah

2008-06-09T06:52:00.000-07:00

stress is so damn hard to take!!!!!! but with ur love ones around you can get over it....my sis are there for me wen i am stressed....but i will be there for you wen ur stress..( u noe who you are) shy lah.....lol, my dad is getting on my freakin nerves and if he wants respect he gots to earn it..yesh yesh! damn freakin irritating! treating me like a small boi! but jus hearing her voice calms me down:0.....sisters if u are reading tis dun be angry you guyz also "calm me down" lol....anyways the onli thing i am gonna say to my sis and my speacial reader call wen u feel stress...my phone like 24/7 mac delveri....hahaha!!!! and to bari and angel no hanky panky:)

peace out :)
(acusing also sucks)

The sTory Unfolds

2008-06-06T18:42:00.000-07:00

hey guyz,i am new blogger hehe....my first blog is gonna be abt a girl who i like:) and has were getting close her past stories unfolds to me. but i still dun care wat her past is....i jus wanna a make a new chapter in her life....she noes all the stuff i hve done its a sceret between us. i dun noe her tat much but together we can noe more abt each other....so if u see tis blog i jus wanna tell you tat i like you no matter wat your past is and holding your hand always sparks excitment within me....letting go of ur hand is like the end of the world...nvr felt like tis wit any of my other ex....your smart,pretty,cute,and you hve tat idiot look..lol last of all i jus wanna say tat, there a start for a new beinging...