BeauTifUl DAwn.....
hey guys tis few days werent that great....i feel like my old lifes coming bak hahaha:) so yea redecorated the christmas tree in my hse which looked like a clown circus at first now it looks abit better. so yea went out wif priya the other day and wen to eat at mac we sat at a table and she sunddenly asked me wuld i be part of her life has her boyfren and i was like ummm you wan fries! she was i am not playing she said that me and her were single and it meant for us to be together but i was like sry priya honestly speaking i did and still have a bit of feelings for you but i still think of natasha and i wished to be wif her and i am sorri i jus dun wan to hurt you she asked wat she does not hve then nastasha has...i told her it jus cant be explained...it reali seemed bad for me to do that to her i told my frens abt it and they said i am one dumb fucker who jus cant be changed and i am always doin and make stupid descions!!!they said i had no pride for myself and i continue to love tasha even though shes wif mark and all that stuff!!!haha maybe? but i dun noe i always followed wat james told me listen to ur heart and fuck evertything else...i was wondering why do other girls wan to be wif me wen the one i reali love dosent!!! haha stupid eh i m sounding so deseperate me and guna same chapter now!!!!but priya said that she try to change me and i jus told her hmmm up to you!!!! man i miss all those times of finding trouble and ending up wasted:) heh honsetly speakin i dun noe wat am i doin....hmmm readin her pm jus now made me tink maybe mark reali does keep her happy good for her hope they last long:) i think the onli way to forget my life is to get into some wicked trouble ima do that!!!peace
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Bubbles bubbles... you know, getting in trouble or drinking and smoking till you blackout does not help at all. trust me. i have so been there done that. you know, you should really give priya a chance. i mean, you would be with her if i dident come into your life right? here's what i've learnt from something similar that i went through a coupple of years ago. there was this guy i thought i was so in love right, and i refused to give anyone else a chance. (not that i had a flock of guys after me at all) buy i wasent thinking of any possibility of bing with anyone else. so, that guy, he told me that he wants me to move on and stuff so he stopped talking to me. we havent spoken till today but thats because he hates the fact that i'm with Mark. The one good thing he did was show me who was more important and that love is not something you find everyday. what i had was just a really strong infatuation.
You have to move on Clarence. i wanted to do this before but i wasent strong enough. and now, i have to be. I still want to spend christmas with you and the girls. but i want you to move on and be happy. so, this time, i'm going to leave you. i'll still be here for you if you need advice or someone to talk to. but please try to move on. dont go and be with somone else immediately because it doesent work that way. wait till you're ready to be with someone else. For me, i took a few months. hopefully you realise a littel bit faster that i did.
i love you but not like that. i told you before you're one of my best friends. so please dont think i'm doing this for any other reason. i just want you to be with someone who really loves you.
i was never good to you and i truely am sorry. i hope you can someday find it in your heart to forgive me.
i wish you well bubbles. take care and be good alright. and don't loose sight in God. he's not the one who betrayed you. i did.
So, God bless you Clarence.
Goodbye.
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